am i really you're angel?
feelin: blank
♫: Elke Kleijn | Outside the Box 044
The worse the nightmares are at night, the better my hair looks in the morning. Why is that? O_o lol Now if I could get my hair to do this fabulous thing on cue... Well, here I am, it's the final day of the holiday as far as I'm concerned and I've gotten an amazing amount of work done. I don't think anyone who isn't in the graphic design world really knows how much work this is.. It's very stressful redesigning pieces for a show, laying out the wall just so (in my case, to accommodate ten feet of space), creating a portfolio that's designed well, a logo book, retouching two 3D packaging projects, hand printing, mounting and cutting 160 business cards... that's not all either! And, to be realistic, that's only HALF of the work I have to do before I walk. So for all of those giving me a hard time for not spending time with you, please give me a break.
Overall, things are coming together well. I am feeling better and less chaotic about the completion of everything. I have, officially, 5 more days to do whatever I need to do to get ready for the show. Printing and mounting, pictures, stitching together my logo book.. I also need to find a business card holder. Ah, who am I kidding. I've been to about 5 or 6 places looking for "the one" and I can't find it! Ideally, I would like a small, unfinished wooden one that I can stain made specifically for vertical cards (since that's what I have), but not even that. So... if it comes to it, I may not have one at all. Who says I can't just fan the cards out next to my leave behind? I don't see the problem with it. I start to second-guess myself...
I'm starting to get all kinds of uneasy feelings in my personal life lately. I can deal with a certain degree of distress in my life. Is it sad that I can do that? I think it is. I don't know why, but my ex boyfriend has contacted me again. I've have my reservations about why, only time will tell what will come of it. I'm happy to say that Kairi is back on his feet again. I think he's sorted out his feelings and his situations.. so, hopefully we'll both reside in calm waters for quite some time. Wouldn't that be nice? I kind of feel uneasy about this girl I'm seeing. With school being the way it is, it's left me unable to see her and spend time with her in the next couple of weeks. I really do hope she's different. I don't want to go through with her what I've been through with other people concerning this matter in the past. -_- Only person I've been with who, when they say they understand, really does mean that and they are fine with waiting. That person, of course, is Sachi. She and I, I'm happy to say this as well, are at an agreement. Things are calm right now and defined, I'm feeling a lot more at peace because of it.
Christmas is on the horizon. WHAT? NO!! I know, it's that time of year. ...Again. Why is it that this holiday is the only one that completely sneaks up on me? No matter how much I plan ( and I've already been stocking up on gifts since my birthday --haha ) I know, like every year, I'll be hunting for something fabulous at the last goddamn minute. I've already received a couple of gifts myself! I'm all about early surprises. Many thanks to those early gift-givers.
Well, I need to dash. More to come later.
JR




